I'm back! whewwwwwww!

Well after a very long month with my DD being ill hospitalized, my cousin girlfreind passed away very suddenly then my BIL extremely sudden out of the blue no one seen this coming.. Besides all the stresses, illnesses, deaths were finally home... Whewww! Boy thought I'd never say it let alone miss my poor sad pathetic boring same ole routine of a life.... Have a very hectic couple weeks ahead of us and the next few months actually. First I have some appointments, treatments & day procedures that I have to have done in the next 5 days alone. Awaiting the kids cardiologist to call again. I had to call her a couple times since both my younger children are from my DH and my BILs DR was very concerned that with there heart conditions that they get a graft/repair of the aorta ASAP to prevent the same thing happening to them as well as my DH. So looks like my kids & hubby will be having heart surgery sometime in the near future. We are planning to move to Ohio after my oldest graduates in the spring. I really want my family all recovered and situated medically before the Boston area hospitals, then to deal with my little girl with exploratory surgery as well because of intestinal issues. Let alone my own health. This could be the worst thing that I could ever do to my health is to leave the Boston area. Well it's already been decided by bohth my DRs and myself that I have to keep my PCP in Boston, emial at least once a week and come back to see him prbbaly once a year unless requested sooner and that he'd refer me to opther DRs out west, one DR in Pittsburgh, PA that I'd have to see regularly which is about 2 1/2 + hours away from where will be.. Cleveland clinc for more rountine things through emergency visits only and they'd have to call my DRs here to get advice on treating me or shipping me into Boston... Oh BOY! So not lookign forward to this but my hubby says we have too. He needs to be a Dad for his brother's only sone (10 y/o) and help his mother with her house and stuff, she should be retiring in a ocuple years. I know that if he doesn't take care of his medical issues first and real soon I may have to disagree with him, start divorce and argue about custody issues in court. I'm on disability so not sure how that would go for me??? Just not a good situation all the way around. I ust hope that he can find a good job in the marine business making the same if not more money and the company will help with moving expenses to make this all possible for him. I just hope that I can cope with no friends, not knowing the area or anyonea t all. Love his mom but not the rest of the clan nice to visit and has been wonderful since we live over 725+ miles away.... Not sure how this is going to work out. Anyway I set up my checking/savings account out there with auto deposits, store cards & library card. Important stuff. A credit card at a local bank out there to build credit with the local bank. So much to do in so little time, the next 6 months or so will fly by I'm sure and be here sooner then we think. We plan on getting rid of most of our funurture and otehr things we don't use often and start fresh out there after staying with his mom for a while. We looked into either buying a house or even checked out some lots of land for sale to build on. So those are the two choices that we decided on so far.

Next step?? Who knows whre to start. I'm still getting delivers of plants/flowers and cards today even. The kids even received some wonderful baskets from people with lots of goodies. Lots of food, cash and things were given to us and the family. IT's been overwelming, lots of thank you's to be written out, DH had it rough going back to work and lots of people coming int o see him. It's nice but very hard after dealing with it the past few weeks to come home and go though some of the same..

Anyway on a brighter note, didn't have much time to get alot of knitting done and absolutely no spinning or soaping which I have lots of orders to fill and of course for scents that I'm out of.... That ever so popular patachouli! I did get both sleevs and the back done of one of three princess sweaters for my DH for chritmas, doesn't look like they'll be done but at least one will Snow White...finished the mosaic socks sure hope the lovely recieptant likes them. I'm so far behind for the holidays it isn't even funny! NOt sure what I'm going to do. The costs of the flowers and gas both way to his moms and evrything else that came along unexpectedly, medications and otehr things along the way were very behind now, just hope we can catch up with the oil heat this winter it's goign to kill us for sure!

Heres the socks:



I sure missed all my blogger friends and I've seen lots of things everyones done it feels like I've been gone so much longer then I was. His family don't have compluters so it was crazy insanity to live without internet access and the one day I did get to a library it wasn't even worth the trip and the time limit. So it's going to be a while for me to catch up but thank you EVERYONE for all the lovely words, comments and continuing to read my blog.. They were all worth a million bucks!
Now I've had to cancel 2 shows that I work this week and I've had 3 calls the past couple days about another show that I usually do every year with a date change and they insist on my presence no matter what and will even work out a deal with me to show up. I will be the only soap & toiletry maker to. Just not sure I can be totally prepared since I haven't done anything. I have soap in stock but not sure I'll have anything else ready in time and certianly not as much as I usually like to have with me. I like to have 600-100 bars at each show which I know that won't happen this year...Order taken will have to be a must to make this work thats for sure. So looks like I will only be doing one show this season. I don't want to stock up on my supplies that I'll have to move I may sell some to have less to haul out with us. ekkks! So much to do and think of my head hurts... Need a little diversion for the moment.. I certianly am not ready to get into the holiday spirit either...will have to soon for the kids sake anyway.....